I am neither a big blogger nor an elite runner.  I don’t receive millions of views and it certainly doesn’t pay my bills.  Nor do I post times that put me at the elite level of running.

Yesterday, I found myself extremely frustrated.  I had written the Wineglass contact page twice.  I had asked if they had time standards for elite runners.  Now I know full well that my half marathon and especially marathon time will not get me a lot of comped entries but there is never harm in trying.

I’m not blogger famous that I get many race entries from that either (Actually I have never received a race entry for blogging).  But I did think it would be a good idea to ask.  My running expenses are fairly high and I am trying to rebuild the savings I lost from not having a job for 8 months.  Long story short I filled out the form twice and left my email address twice as well as other means of contacting both times.

If they had sent me an email saying “no we don’t do comped entries” or “no you aren’t fast enough”, that would have been fine.  I would have signed up that same day to secure my spot.  I was waiting for an email to give me a definite answer.

But the fact was I waited for an email that never came.  I did, however, get a text message from Laura  yesterday asking if I had signed up for Wineglass.  I knew exactly where this was going…she was going to tell me “it sold out”.

She didn’t, she told me it had five spots left.  Immediately I panicked and tried to register on my phone.  I got past all the screens, registration and put in my credit card information.  When I went to register, the race was sold out.  It said error this option is no longer available.

So there I was: so excited to run a race I didn’t even sign up for.  In the back of my mind, I knew I should have just signed for it and now waited for an email telling me yes or no but I didn’t do that.  I waited.

Immediately I stormed the internet.  I tweeted that I was devastated, I was upset, etc.  Do they know the rage I will create?

Then I realized: Who have I become?  I’m upset because I’m an average runner and a smaller blogger and I’m hoping for a free race entry?  I felt whiny and as if I almost felt entitled.

I felt immediately like an entitled dramatic toolbag. 

Everyone signing up and toeing the line for a marathon works hard.  You have to put in work.  I realized I shouldn’t have waited for an email and should have taken initiative to sign up for this race a long time ago.  In my personal opinion, I think a simple “no we don’t do that” would have been nice…but it didn’t happen.

I started to think about various other races I could do.  There were many fall marathons that were still open.  Despite my heart being in Wineglass I had dug my grave.  I had put off signing up. After crying a little bit I looked for various marathons I could run in its place..

I wanted a marathon either the same weekend or later (not sooner).  I wanted flat, fast, etc.  I had two narrowed down.

Then I saw someone a few hours later had registered for Wineglass.  How was that possible, it gave me the error message earlier.  Again I was not home and tried to register from my phone.  This time it went through.  This time my credit card was charged 107 dollars and I was in.

I guess you could say that Wineglass is still on then.  I learned my lesson that I can’t sit and wait for a company or anyone to respond.  I also gave myself a nice reality check that blogging is still just blogging.  I am not a super star because I blog.  I am not famous and I’m not an elite runner because I blog.  I’m still Hollie, a normal person blogging their way through life.