Training: Real Talk, Anxiety, and Taking a Step Back
It’s important to be honest, so here we are.
Recently, I have found myself once again burning the candle at far too many ends. So I’m taking a few days off from running. I started my self-imposed break on Saturday and will continue until I feel like running again. My guess is around next weekend, but I’m not putting any pressure on myself.
Since my Half Marathon PR in February, I haven’t had a lot of quality training weeks. I’ve run and have had several good weeks, but I haven’t had the consistency that led to my PR. You can’t always be in PR shape and can’t train hard all of the time. I should have taken a more extended break a few weeks ago, but I took a few days off and still think I jumped too quickly back.
But running isn’t even the most important thing I’m suffering through.
Over the last few weeks, my anxiety has been at an all-time high since college. In my own personal life, I have a lot going on. Unfortunately, it’s not something I can talk about in the blogging world, and I am talking with my therapist about events going on. No, it’s nothing life-threatening, and I’m not injured in any way (knock on wood).
Yes, running is great, but for me, it’s not therapy and not interchangeable and of course blogging on the internet does not take the place of talking to a professional.
|Tuesday:||Easy 45 minutes|
|Wednesday:||5k Speed Workout (20:01)|
|Friday:||Easy 60 minutes|
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Today’s workout was getting my Virtual 5k in for @bravelikegabe . . Ran a 20:01 which I’m happy with for a midweek workout race. . @gigrunewald is truly an inspiration and I can think of no better way than to celebrate Global Running Day then this. . Smiling because it was a good run and even better cause.
Why do I talk Openly about Anxiety and Depression?
I’m not ashamed of it. With the recent news of Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain, it’s important to know you aren’t alone.
It’s easy for anyone to say “I’m here for you, if you ever need to chat” but believe me if you aren’t in your normal frame of mind, you won’t ask for help. In my darkest moments through college, I didn’t ask a single soul for help. Many people, including best friends and family, said they were there, but I had no interest to ask for help. Most people who have dealt with any mental health disease don’t.
For me, I need to talk to a professional. Having anxiety or depression isn’t embarrassing. Like any crippling disease, it’s essential to take actions to deal with it, so it doesn’t continue to hinder or affect your quality of life. Right now, my anxiety is far higher on the scale than depression. I’m not in that mindset but I also know I have several issues to work through.
I’m not fine, but I’m taking steps so I will be. I have family, friends, and professionals that are helping me dig into the hole I fell down.
I do plan to be active the next week. Right now is a good time for me to take a break from running. It makes sense from a mental health standpoint as well as a fitness standpoint. I’ve been running healthy for almost a year now with no real hiccups. Like last June, I’ll be busy with various things that June is a good month for me to take off. I can squeeze running here and there, but I would prefer to have downtime and focusing on more important things.
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Questions for you:
Do you ever take running breaks?
Are you getting ready for any races soon?