This is a very heavy post. So I’m not sure if you suffer from any sort of eating disorder or any sort of problem of that nature if you want to read it. I promised I would be realistic with my blogging besties and here I am. Being realistic. Sometimes I have to write a couple of serious posts to counteract my other shenanigans but really I have a lot more to say about my 5k race than what met the eye. No pictures today but I’ll make up for it on my long car ride tomorrow. 🙂
As many of you know I raced a 5k on July 4th. I ended up finishing in 20:32 which is an okay time for me. Not the greatest at all but not the worst I could do by far.
During the 20 minutes that I as actually racing though a lot of factors laced into my mind. I think I did more thinking during those 20 minutes than the entire week combined and I’m taking an online class.
Anywho, I’ll preface this because I don’t know how many people read from my DM, regular subscribers or have read my blog for the last year. (I love you all by the way) Basically I’ll catch you all up to speed so it will make more sense.
Being a two sport college athlete, it is extremely mentally tough. It’s tough because I’m not doing indoor and outdoor track, I’m not doing two sports that generally work the same muscles or are the same thing. No offense-but if you do indoor, outdoor, and cross country while yes you are a 3 sport athlete but you are generally doing about the same thing all year round. Swimming is about a 10 month single sport just as running kind of is. Swimming and running, however, are 100% complete different. I mean sure they are both cardio based but that is about it.
With that-there are two completely different body types that excel in both sports. With running, the smaller you are the general faster you go. Not all the time and there are plenty of exceptions. But it is a general case. With swimming, it is more important to have meat on your bones so that you will be more boyant and generally do better. When I swam my best times in high school, I was never a rail. In fact, I was about the highest healthy weight for a 5’7 female. As I grew older, my body changed (like antipuberty or something).
But long story short-My swim coach and cross country coach have both brought up the topic of weight and how it affects sports with me. My swim coach, point blank told me I would not do well in swim season if I didn’t gain 10 pounds after cross country last November. I was not underweight during cross country (and never have been). We just had a long talk that gaining about ten pounds (healthily) would be best for my swimming.
So I did.
Now-my cross country coach has mentioned a few times that maybe it would help my running to go back to where I was preswimming and preNovember. No-he is not forcing me to lose weight. No-he is not telling me to be under weight. No-he is not pressuring me or telling me I should losing weight is the only option and blah blah blah. He is merely telling me facts.
People that are not athletes often forget that your body is what gets you through your sport. Not everyone loses weight for a body image. I have been obnoxious and confident in every stage and body proportion of my life and that isn’t a problem.
The reason I was hesitant to put this on the blog was because I don’t want people to think that anyone is forcing me to do anything, making me feel uncomfortable or triggering any sort of eating disorder.
Because quite frankly-I’m at a point in my life that I can talk about weight rationally to my coach, to my friends, to my parents, to my blogging besties, DMers whatever without feeling like it is triggering something in me.
Anyways, that race just made me think long and a hard about swimming, running and weight. All in 20 minutes. I really don’t need anyone to tell me I need to lose or gain weight because that isn’t what I was getting at.
What do you think about athletics and weight?