Here’s the thing. I don’t really have any goal races in the near future and I’m just taking it as it comes.
I can slowly get back into running and my cyst is the size of a pea. Well that is nice, but there is a very good (25% chance) that it could enlarge again the size of a golf ball.
Does that terrify me and make me never want to run again?
Oh hell yes. That shit was painful.
With that being said, I’m cleared to get back into running and have been all week. I will be honest (and I don’t really want any comments about it because I am being really careful) but I’m not 100% better. If before my cortisone shot I was at a 10 of pain, I’m now at a 2 or so. Which is a lot of healage but I’d prefer to be at 0 personally. I’m doing everything my coach and doctor says.
That terrifies me. I have lacked motivation to get back into running because I am so scared to be injured again and enhancing the size of my cyst. My plantar fascia is still really tight. My calves are tight. Everything is tight.
This week I was at a conference for the back half (which is why I wasn’t too up on your blogs). My workouts were okay, I’m just ya know…terrified of running.
What did I even do this week?
I cut down my elliptical sessions.
And ran about 30 minutes this week. Well that seems like a lot. One, my injury was NOT running related. Two, I was running over 90 miles when not injured. Three, I’m not running on hills or very fast (for me).
I had the option of going to run in our conference race this weekend and I declined it. It was painful knowing that I could physically complete the 6k but seeing as I am already more fearful of running then snakes I decided not too.
I’ve been stretching, doing leg exercising to strengthen the muscles as well as trying to maintain my core muscles. It’s been going well now. But I really hate this phase of training more then anything (returning from injury).
Questions for you:
1. What is your biggest fear?
2. Have you ever come back from a serious injury?