It’s Not You…It’s Me…

Something I’ve struggled with lately is having the time to hang out with friends.  I don’t feel as though I have the time right now to hang out with everyone I want too right now.  With work and wedding planning, I have struggled to keep afloat with my own mental sanity.  On my days off, I want to relax and catch up with wedding stuff.  Right now, I need to relax but also get more wedding stuff done.  I’m not stressed about it, I’m just in the process of trying to adjust to my current situation (thinking about it makes me realize that).

How sad right?

I felt the effects of exhaustion last week.  I woke up last Wednesday at 4am.  I had a serious migraine and was sick from 4 until going to work at 10.  I felt under the weather and exhausted.  I was extremely lucky that my boss allowed me to leave early and just sleep.  I slept from roughly 5pm-6am the next day.  When I woke up the next day, I realized I was still exhausted.  It took me the entire wedding weekend to actually catch up.

I guess this is adulthood. I don’t have children so kudos to all of you who balance training, working, etc.  Right now it isn’t that I want to ignore anyone or not hang out but I don’t have the time.  I’m currently trying to balance work, the final few wedding weeks and maintaining my relationship to the man I’m going to marry.  I miss the days that I was able to drive to North or Central Jersey and meet friends.

It’s honestly been a very hard realization and adjustment to make.  It’s hard for me to say no to someone wanting to go on a diner date, hang out, or grab food but right now I know it’s the best move for me.

I know this is one of the biggest moments of my life.  I’m sure it gets old because I’ve been talking about my wedding for a year but I don’t want to be stressed.  In order for that to happen I need to stay calm and make sure I put myself first sometimes and keep my own sanity.  I can’t show up to work or life both physically and mentally exhausted. 

This is an all to common situation for me.  I often find myself taking too much on my life plate.  I keep piling things on until nothing else fits.  Finally something gives and I am forced to take a step back.  It’s happened with work and previous jobs, with overbooking myself and with school and classes.

I’ve always been open and honest with my readers and I find that to be important.  Right now I’ve felt overwhelmed by everything.  I cannot wait to get married and I’m truly excited for it but the planning has been a lot more than I anticipated.

I’ll still be around in the blogging world but I do have a lot going on. As much as I want to meet with friends and readers to hang out, I know I have so much going on right now.  I truly appreciate everyone’s love and support.  No one likes to feel overwhelmed but I know it will all be worth it in the end.

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Questions for you:

Do you often pile too much on your life plate?

Do you consider yourself stressed easily?