Halfway Done

I’m currently halfway done with a lot of things in my life.

I’m already more then halfway done recovering from my stress fracture.  Judging by the location of my stress fracture as well as the thickness of the crack, my doctor created a timeline of my healing process.  So far so good and he has been able to accurately predict how it would heal.  I’m about three and a half weeks of no running and everything continues to go streamline I might be able to run my first mile soon. Mentally the time has flown by.  This injury has been different from any other injury that I’ve had.  I didn’t stress that I was injured.  I actually never once cried.  The time keeps ticking away very quickly.  I credit that to staying busy and not worrying about it.  I also credit it to not whining too much and seeking positive aspects of my life.  I didn’t create an injury hashtag and I limited how much I complained about being injured.  I was truly happy for my friends PRing in their 5ks, 10k, marathons and whatever else.  In turn, I feel it’s made the time go quicker because I’m not dwelling on the fact I’m injured.

More importantly, I’m one month into T’s deployment (with one month to go). I’m mentally in a hell of a lot better spot than I would have thought.

If you were to ask me in August, Hollie how do you think you’ll feel when your finance is deployed and you have a stress fracture?

I would have probably responded with, that’s not really a situation I want to deal with. It’s probably not a situation I could even comprehend at the time. I would be an emotional wreck.

Here I am dealing with that exact situation.  Within the matter of two weeks I rode an emotional roller coaster of T leaving and then finding out I had a stress fracture. I’m injured and dealing with  fiance being deployed but I’m making the best of the situation.  I’m not allowing myself to be in a negative spot.  I’m looking for the positive and good situations versus the negative and not so good.  Honestly, some days are better than others but I’m not an emotional wreck. I’m nowhere near that mindset and haven’t found myself there very much at all.  While I can’t say this is my favorite stretch of my life, I can’t sit and pretend I’m letting myself be miserable.  It’s always been in my nature to make the best of situations.  While I may vent or ramble about something, I’m always striving to make the best of the situation.

I’ve found keeping busy and keeping out of an empty house is one of the biggest factors for me to stay happy. I’m working, I’m seeing friends and I’m not allowing myself be consumed by the internet.  I truly believe those that sit around and feel sorry for themselves aren’t going to be as happy.

Could I sit on the internet for hours on end, keep to myself and “get through it”? Sure but that’s not really a life I want to live, running or not.

It’s made me realize that I have a ton of other interests that have nothing to do with running (something I think everyone needs). In case you wondered, I wish I could say I’ve used this extra time to plan our wedding…but that would be a false statement.  I’ve really found other things that interested me.  I have no regrets on anything and have truly taken time to enjoy life.

I’ve fostered friendships in the last month. I’ve learned my friends near and far always have my back. They’ve kept me sane. They’ve kept me from having any meltdowns, from feeling sorry for myself and from becoming more of a mess than usual.  They’ve allowed me to just talk and to bounce ideas off of.

That being said, I’m very much halfway through my recovery and halfway through Tim’s deployment. I’m still looking forward to when I’m 100% the way through both.  Throughout both situations, I try and keep the concept of things could always be worse.  There will always be people that have it “worse than I do” and that I should take time to realize that.  That being said I have a countdown to Tim getting back as well as a countdown to my first mile that I’ll be able to run.  This is just one short chapter of my life.  A chapter building a foundation for the next greater chapter of life.

I always look at this photo and realize that life is full of great moments whether you are looking or not.

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Question for you:  How do you stay positive in rough times? 



29 thoughts on “Halfway Done”

  1. Hollie, you are doing SO well! When i had my stress reaction in college, my world FELL APART, just like you described you expected you would be feeling. i was a demon to everyone around me, and felt like I had nothing to offer the world. It is very admirable that you were able to realize that you have so much more in your life, and so much more to offer this world.

    I know I say this a lot, but this will ONLY make you stronger, and give you a new balance in life (as well as a lot more things you enjoy). Hang in there, and start the visualization process to see yourself at your next race being proud, and being so glad you made it through what you did, as you will never achieve those greater goals without it 🙂

  2. i cannot express how much i love this post! seeing how well you’re handling everything is admirable; as we’ve discussed keeping busy is key. time keeps on ticking and before you know it T will be back and you’ll be logging those miles again. 🙂

  3. Surrounding myself with friends and family is definitely my best strategy for getting through hard times. It sounds like you’re handling these challenges well, all things considered. And I mean, I know the internet can be a black hole and not exactly the best support system ever, but I hope you know you’ve got tons of friends in the blog world who would do anything for you! 🙂

  4. I didn’t realize Tim’s deployment is so short! I’m used to the 1 year Army ones! I’m sure it doesn’t FEEL short to you though, haha. It still sucks being at home without him, but as far as deployments go, that’s not bad! You definitely sound very at peace with everything! I think it’s great! I’m sure you’ll be running before you know it.

      1. Yeah, but it’s nice to be ably to see him between his time away! Then again, I think when you’re apart for so long, you kind of grow accustomed to it. I miss Jon more when I see him and when we’re away for longer, I don’t really miss him as much! (I’m kind of weird though.)

  5. I can’t even tell you how much I loved this post, Hollie… I really love seeing people stay positive no matter the circumstances. Sure life throws some crap at us every now and again, but our happiness depends more on how we deal with those situations than what they actually are. I stay positive by always trying to focus on the good in my life rather than the bad. Are things perfect? No, but I have a -tonne- to be grateful for and I’d rather use my energy looking at those things than complaining about the negative ones.

  6. my favorite positivity method is making lists of things I’m grateful for! It’s so easy to overlook the good stuff in life when you’re faced with a lot of bad stuff. You are rockin this not-so-good time and I am so inspired by you!!!! 🙂

  7. Hollie, you seem to be handling everything so rationally! It’s really impressive! In tough times, I try to think everything through and avoid panicking, it always makes everything worse. Talking to a friend also does wonders. Try to remember, that it’s just a matter of time – everything will be better soon 🙂

    1. Thanks Nessa for all of your support! I’ve found being able to talk to someone and just vent and ramble away too. I always feel like just chatting helps me out personally.

  8. Your mindset = my inspiration. I just moved away from home from the first time and while its not a temporary, negative situation it is still hard and a lot of the things you are saying really resonate with me! Ie not sitting at home/in my room alone, focusing on the good days, etc. I am definitely cheering for you and can’t wait until those countdowns end. 🙂

  9. What an inspiration you are!! Anyone is whoever dealing with an injury (or just the short end of the stick in general) should read this post. I love what you said about finding other things that interest you because as runners I think that gets lost sometimes. You just rock my socks, Hollie!! Maybe I’ll even go do a burpee in-front of Tim Hortons for you 😉 XO

  10. Hey Hollie! This is exactly what I needed to read today.. I am due to have surgery on my shoulder next month and I won’t be able to run for a while. I’ve already been losing sleep over it and it hasn’t even happened yet! I am thankful that I am able to run now, I shall make the most of enjoying running before my surgery and I will know that I will be able to run in the future. I shall use the time to finish the 7 books that I am reading hehe. Good luck getting better, thank you for this post 😀 Olivia ♥

      1. Thank you so much! I shall try not to grumble about it :p I am reading Women Who Run With Wolves, Walden, The Power of Now, Call of the Wild, The Hive and The Cloudspotters Guide… I think I need to just read one book at a time! What are you reading at the moment?

  11. Your mental strength and positive attitude have carried you well during this journey–and will continue to do so. Aside from these two things, it’s important to stay busy and “do you”/do what makes you happy.

    1. I think that’s always important. If you aren’t happy doing you then you aren’t going to enjoy life. At least that is my viewpoint…

  12. I love that photo of you and your fiancé.

    I also want to thank you for your posts about Injinji socks. I’ve had a terrible time with black toenails and I tried them out of desperation because of your recommendation. They seem to be working for me!

    1. I’m really glad you like them and can get the same benefits! They are such a great sock and I can’t get enough of them. Thanks for stopping by Judith!

  13. My friends can always tell when I’m really stressed out by the amount of baked goods I try to pawn off them. 😉 You’re doing so well, and I’m glad that time is flying by faster than you would have thought. I think it’s because you’ve done a great job at accepting situations for what they are and have therefore focused your energies on getting through them, not worrying about HOW you’ll get through them. xo

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