A few days ago I was asked how I managed running, moving and keeping my stress level down. To give you a complete and honest answer I’m not sure I completely balanced it all out but I am trying to do my best.
I am someone always looking at the long term goals. When I’m running, always look at the long term race (as said in my Oiselle profile page) but in life as well. While individual runs or days might bother me or cause me to be stressed I know in a few days I’ll be less stressed.
I can’t tell you the amount of times I’ve questioned something since moving to Texas in September the first time.
I was scared of the unknown. I had lived by myself for a year in Oswego functioning in society but this was different. I was going somewhere without a job, a real plan and just flying by the seat of my pants. What would happen? Would I get there and it wouldn’t work out? What if I never found a job? What if I hate Texas? What if I get injured then I’m left with no friends, job and nothing to do all day? All of these thoughts passed my mind in the first week of moving down there. Actually they continued to pass my mind. The truth is you cannot control the unknown.
Then when we found we would be moving to NJ I went through another standard set of thoughts immediately flew through my mind. Would I like it? How would this work with my marathon? Would I have to move alone? What if my car broke in the middle of my move by myself? (Originally I thought I would have to drive back alone). Would I be able to train while moving? What would my parents think that I’m constantly moving? What would everyone think? Did I make the right choice? The move between Texas, staying with my parents for a couple of weeks and then to New Jersey was the most stressful. I felt like I had made the complete wrong choice since just six weeks prior I didn’t think I would be on the East Coast anytime soon. It taught me that you need to be spontaneous and that you can’t have life planned as much as you want. Things will happen.
I’m finally settled in New Jersey and lots more thoughts are going through my mind. Will I ever find a job? Is my foot still bruised? Will my car ever function again? How can I go to a job interview without a car? Will I enjoy this area? Will I make friends? Will I like it in a year, 2 years, 3 years? Will I even still be here in that time? What if I have to commute an hour to work? What if, what if, what if?
I guess you can say my mind moves a mile a minute. I’m assimilating into New Jersey well. I like it a lot here but I’m still constantly thinking about finding a job, making sure I’m happy and point blank just constantly thinking. As far as life goes I’m just taking each day a step at a time. Maybe I’ll wake up and want to run. Maybe I won’t…Perhaps I will get called for an interview. Right now I’m just rolling with the punches and being as flexible as possible. Though I would like to call and speed up the process of my car…I want to explore!
Questions for you:
Do you find yourself questioning things often?
Do you have any big plans this week?
My dad is actually driving up to NY to pick up my brother from school so they might and check out the house on the way back. That would be a lot of fun!